All my life I have gone to church, been a good person, and aimed to follow Jesus. I would like to think that I live the faith just fine. But Lent 2015 really challenged me. I committed myself to “Do Lent” fully. I read the daily readings, did a prayer/fast/almsgiving activity every day, attended daily mass as often as possible, watched the daily #ShareJesus video, and sat down each night to write up a blog post reflecting on the day. It was all-consuming. It was hard and exhausting. But it was worth it.
In those 40+ days God challenged me greatly to really reflect on how well I was indeed living my faith. He showed me that I could do so much more. He helped me grow spiritually.
He has been wanting to work in me and thru me all of my life and it is me who has said, “Not now, God. I just can’t do that for you.” But the more I gave Him my “Yes”, the more my life felt right. He calms the internal storm. He is the light in the darkness.
It isn’t that I had set out to say “No” to God. It was just that I was my priority in life instead of Him. And I didn’t realize just how often I was saying “no” instead of “yes” until I started to say “yes” more.
Every day He gives me opportunities to say “Yes” to Him and every day He challenges me to grow closer to Him. In my best moments I give that “Yes”. But in my weakest moments though I say “No”.
I’ve come to realize that Faith is lived every day – I can draw strength from my past relationship with God and I can draw strength from my hope in Him – but every day I have to actively choose God.
This site documents my faith journey and the times I listen for when God is asking for my “yes” or when He gives me little glimpses of Him in my every day life.
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Lent 2015 Day 36 (Wednesday March 25)
Isaiah 7: 10-14 8: 10 The Lord himself will you you this sign: the virgin will be with child, and bear a son, and shall name him Emmanuel, which means “God is with us!”
Hebrews 10: 4-10 We have been consecrated through the offering of the Body of Jesus Christ once for all
Luke 1: 26-38 Mary said, “Behold I am the handmaid of the Lord. May it be done to me according to your word.”
“Say ‘Yes’ to God.” is often said. But today I heard it phrased this way: “Give God your Yes.”
(That’s Fr. Joe Freedy
, by the way.)
How beautifully put! I don’t think I can explain how hearing it that way made (and makes) me feel. But there was just something about it.
Perhaps because with “Say ‘Yes’ to God” this seems to imply we are waiting around for that clear moment when God gives us the opportunity to say “Yes” to Him and that we’ll be able to recognize that moment as a clear “yes or no” decision point. But that is not how God works. Those opportunities don’t come with God on a puffy white cloud speaking in a loud voice saying, ‘Hey Maureen, it’s God. How about doing this? Yes or No?”. Wouldn’t that make saying “Yes” to God so easy? (Yes!) No, these moments come in the form of an old man carrying groceries and recognizing he could use a ride home. Or in helping someone pick up something they have dropped. Or holding the door for the person behind you.
“Give God your ‘Yes’” I think I am drawn to this because it implies I need to be active, that I have a never ending supply of “Yeses” to give out, and God is always there just waiting for my “Yes”. And the “Yes” is the clear choice. There really is no debating “Am I going with a ‘Yes’ or a ‘No’ right now?” I’m not waiting around for God to clearly say “Hey Maureen, it’s God. Yeah, this is me trying to work here and calling on you to do your part. Are you in?” Instead I am here, ever-present for the Lord. Ready to jump into action. I am looking for God speaking to me in all things and so I actively live to give God my “Yes” — “Yes?” “Yes!”