“Brothers and sisters: As you received Christ Jesus the Lord, walk in him, rooted in him and built upon him and established in the faith as you were taught, abounding in thanksgiving. See to it that no one captivate you with an empty, seductive philosophy according to the traditions of men, according to the elemental powers of the world and not according to Christ.” – Colossians 2:6-15
Ok freaky weird. Soooo within the last few months I’ve been like “I buy too much stuff, and way too much from ‘Amazan’. I need to stop buying things and also cut out Amazan. Oh man someone should pay me to not use Amazan for a year! And I could write about how much I used to use it and how hard it was to not. I could analyze prices and why people get so drawn in to using it.” … It would make for a great article or book, would it not? I’d call it “A Year Without Amazan”.
Fast forward to later that night when I bought something from Amazan.
Flash forward to a few weeks ago when I have been trying to be better at not buying things, especially from Amazan. But a funny thing happened — neigh, a freaky thing — I somehow got selected to be an ‘Amazan Voice’. Apparently by being a ‘voice’ I can get free things as long as I write a review of the product. [They say it’s cuz I write good/helpful reviews, but paranoid me isn’t so sure they aren’t just completely monitoring everything I type and say.]
Instead of sitting down, scrolling, and buying things from Amazan, as a ‘voice’ I can sit down, scroll, and get free things from Amazan. (It’s talons are deep!) And I have bought into it hook, line, and sinker — all while mentally going “This is not good. This is not good.” (in terms of spiritual-ness) and “Oh fun! I want this and this and this.” (in terms of earthly-pleasure-ness). [I’ve been trying to focus on items I actually need instead of going entirely crazy getting whatever (I have gotten some good baby stuff!), but I also know I haven’t been perfect and have gotten a few things just for the fun of it.)
Does it count to recognize the “evil” and say “I am aware of you. I am doing this thing that’s on a morally risky slope, but since I’m aware of you I am in control, not you.”? Or is that even worse than not being aware at all? I’m trying to walk this fine line between this earthly-ness and what is probably actually truly best for me. …Is this God testing me? Or is this God saying “You quit your job so now have less money. Let me help you get the things you need.”? …I love the latter, but maybe it’s the former. And if the former then I really, really, really, really, really needed to “read & heed” those verses from Colossians today (and every day).
I am being captivated by an empty, seductive philosophy. :: I must run away as best as I can and root and build myself in Christ.
I say that. I know that. And yet I know that I will still be an active voice. The chains that bind are strong. Christ can break them, but how much do I actually want Him to? I need to take an honest look at myself and not be dead in my transgressions.